The time will soon come

Ok, so here's the deal. I want to start living as Hannah by August and hormones by December. The problem is my mom. I'm sure she will be supportive of me, but the problem is that I don't want to add more stress to her already stressful life. The last thing she needs in her life right now is to hear that her son wants to be her daughter. I have been told by my therapist and friends time and time again that this can't be about anyone else but me. What will make me happy. It sounds selfish to me. Any comments?

-Hannah

-- Post From My iPad

The Final Weeks Begin

Ah, the last couple of weeks of school, isn't it great...NOT!!! I probably wont have advanced standing and I am gonna need to work my ass off to get off academic probation. FUCK YOU SCHOOL OF THEATRE ARTS! (for those of you who didn't understand that little outburst, i got a D in a class that i should have gotten an A in because i was sick and missed the class too many times) Well, i guess at least ill be able to get one of my tests behind me tomorrow. Seems like the Selz always schedules her finals early. Finished with work now. Gonna go to a friend's place and study with him. Cross your fingers for me, ok.

-- Post From My iPad

Roommate

So I got placed in the residence hall i wanted, but I need a roommate. If anyone knows someone who wouldn't mind rooming with a tranny, let me know.


-- Post From My iPad

Almost done!

As the end of the semester grows near, i grow more and more tired. With finals coming up not to mention work and everything else going on in my life, things are just stressful. But i just gotta keep counting down the days. Soon i will only have to work on sat and sun. When i finish with classes, im thinking about taking a page from the Iditarod dog sled race and taking a 24 hour nap (they get one in the course of the race) and just getting back up to full strength.

On a higher note, i talked to an old friend who is also going through what I am. Except she's a little farther along than me. I am jealous of her. I hope we speak more in the future.

-- Post From My iPad

Back to work

I suppose i could be posting this from my normal computer, but i love the iPad. I returned to my part time weekend job this weekend.

Classes are almost over. I can't say I will be upset to see this school year come to an end. I guess I forgot just how much energy college can take out of you... Especially when you don't have your weekends to relax. Anyway, this summer will be for just that, as next year comes the BFA and I will need to work extra hard.

I am meeting with my therapist tomorrow and we will have a lot to talk about. Especially since I may not be able to see her after the end of the month.

-- Post From My iPad

Fabulous "Less" Vegas

So I totally forgot to blog while I was in Vegas at the NAB convention. I guess could just do a quick recap. The NAB Show was really cool. Saw a lot of cool new 3D technologies that will be available to the public soon if not already. But the trip ended up sucking. I was shooting craps, and this guy comes up to this table and starts to tell me how to bet. (Note: I have never lost the way I normally bet, NEVER). So he started telling me to do these unconventional bets and I lost all my winnings from earlier in the night as well as the money I started with for gambling. I swear to god that guy must have been working for the casino, and if I ever see him again, I'll stab him with my stiletto heels. Lol, j/k but I learned a valuable lesson - never let anyone tell you how to bet if you do well as you are.

Health Insurance

As you can probably tell from the title, this will likely be an interesting post. This will get everyone caught up on the past few weeks.

-- Health Insurance --

Gotta love those fucks at the place my mom works. They set her up and subsequently fired her. I am on her health insurance, or whats left of it. I have about a month to figure something out or I don't know what I will do about getting my epilepsy medication. I have been made aware of something called Arizona AHCCCS. What it is is a program that gives health insurance to everyone in the state who needs it but cant afford it. But from what I have heard, i may not have enough time to jump through their hoops. So I'll fill out their application online tonight and go from there.


-Hannah

-- Post From My iPad (I found this cool app for it and considering the site doesn't work with iPad, I'm lucky it was there!)

I know, it's been a while. What can I say. College is busy.

Ok, so where was I? Oh, right. The University of Arizona. Ok, so after I worked in news for a year and realized it wasn't what I wanted do with the rest of my life, I went back to school to study what i allays wanted to do -- film. So I began my journey in Media Arts. As the want to become Hannah started to become stronger, I started looking for support around the university and in Tucson as well. I met with a person who helped me find some support groups around Tucson and at school which of course shall remain nameless. It has helped me a great deal. It also helped that i was finally able to move out of my parents' house so i could at least wear that cute jean skirt at home. I started seeing a therapist that shall be known as T and i started going to meetings at the various support groups and i continue to do so today. That's how i got to where i am today, which, in the pas few weeks has been far from easy. Enjoy the forthcoming post about that action.