Second Chances...Take 2

Ok, so heres the deal...

I spoke with Jan yesterday. Things went very well. However, my plan is slightly altered. I am planning to tell my friends much sooner than expected. Sometime within the next few weeks. However, I will have to swear them to confidentiality until December. Which brings up the case of december...

December is when I plan on starting to live as Hannah FULL TIME! Its exciting and scary at the same time. However, with my friends behind me, I think things will go well, and I will likely carry pepper spray and a tazer at night, just to be safe.

As you read before, I wanted to start hormones in Dec. in time to have something of a chest by May for the second chance prom. I spoke with Jan about this and technically, the guidelines state that I have to live full time, before I can start hormones, so we agreed that March would be a good time, with the stipulation that I start living as of Jan. 1.

As for my facial hair problem, I found out that electrolosis has several advantages. First, you dont have to pay $1000 up front for all the treatments. You can pay $45 per hour on the day you have the treatment. Second, the laser is only hair reduction, not hair removal, as does electrolosis. Third, in the end it should end up costing less than the laser. Although it may take more time. As I can pay as I go, and with my new job, I will start it as soon as next week. I want to get most, if not all of the hair on my face gone before January 1st. It will significantly help with my passing ability.

Hopefully, due to my family genetics (mainly my mom's and sisters gargantuan boobs) they will grow more or less quickly. But I am sure that I will be able to make myself look perfect in the gown, one way or another.

One last thing... Please feel free to post comments whenever you feel appropriate. I enjoy knowing that people are reading what I write and that it is not just lost in cyberspace.

-Hannah

Second Chances...

Wow, didn't think i would already be tired halfway through monday. Probably cause I didn't have much of a dinner last night. Couldn't get something to eat at work last night because i am down to about 49 cents in my bank acct until friday, but I should have plenty of food and gas to last me till then.

Meeting with Jan today in about 2 hours. Always somthing to look forward to. Lots to talk about too.

Last year I heard about something that i considered but ended up not going to...

The Second Chance Prom

The concept behind it is that if you didn't get to bring who you wanted, wear what you wanted, or didn't even go to your high school prom, this is the opportunity to make up for that. The reason that I chose not to go last year is that my face is still furry and I was still just starting with my transition. Although my face is still furry, I am going to try and take care of that by May. I would also like to start hormones by December so that I can grow something in the way of breasts by then as the gown I want to wear is strapless. Below is the link to the site that sells said gown, although I haven't looked for lower prices yet.

http://www.promdressshop.com/Prom-Dress-Precious-Formals-P44132.aspx

It's purple and beautiful and I love it. It's exactly like what I would have worn to my prom, had I known what was going on back then.

Of course, the hormones are contingent on telling my friends what is going on. After all, it would probably confuse them if they saw my chest getting bigger, while my tummy is getting smaller, not to mention the redistribution of my waist and hip lines.

The one thing that I have going for me is that they are members of my generation. And in this generation, people are far more accepting of the LGBT community, thats for damn sure. Plus, theres the added bonus that the crowd I hang with is all democrats with one exception, but he is a good guy and I think that things will be good. So i guess we will have to see how things go. One thing's for sure, I will be very happy to start wearing skirts this next summer...all the time. Until next time...

-Hannah

4 days now...

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There was supposed to be a desert girls coffee which is a more casual SAGA meeting tonight but i guess they are trying to change the location oe something like that. Probably ok though since i have to work that morning shift at news 4 again tomorrow morning. I think i will then go to my oscr job. And then just skip English. Nothing i cant make up.

This week has been passing remarkably slower than the last weeks of last year. Seems strange. Not sure why. Could be the stupid morning shifts.

I wish that SC2 had fewer missions in campaign mode. I know that sounds strange, but i really like playing it and i want them to be over so i wont want to continue to play it each night.

Until next time...

-Hannah

We're 3 days in...

Classes have begun. Things are ok. As it happens, the class I like the least is the cross listed media arts course. Guess thats why it is cross listed. Italian has certainly been an interesting experience to say the least. I found out on the first day of class that the majority of the class is taught in Italian. Figures. But i am learning it at an ok rate. It isn't really that hard. What I need to do is to look at the book and confirm what i have learned. But it seems easier than being taught the language in English.

Working for oscr is good, don't do much but sit and make sure no one steals stuff. Pretty nice time to post on my blog or study. And it keeps me away from star craft 2 so that's good.

This week kinda sucks because of my shifts at news 4. Oh well, what can i do. Just gotta get through Friday.

My gp from ny sent the check to help me with my finances, he wasn't kidding, it was a very little 30 bucks. So much for my new hannah montana bedding.

Gonna try and figure out how my friends feel about trans folk. And then, one by one, talk to them. So we will see. One thing is for damn sure. This year, I am going to buy a beautiful gown and go to the second chance prom!

Until next time-

-Hannah


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5 Days and Counting...

School is nearly upon me, and I can say that I am less that excited about it. First I am not enrolled in any Media Arts classes this semester. I was hoping to avoid this with Advanced Standing, but I didn't study hard enough and got a bad grade in film history. So I suppose it is my own fault. Second, the School of Media Arts has now joined with...

...I'll give you one guess...

The theater department. We are now called..

The School of Theatre, Film, and Television.

I suppose I wouldn't be so upset if our name was first but oh well.

I am retaking that lighting class that i got a D in last fall to improve my GPA. Although I will have to put up with that bastard who was the TA last year as the cage manager, the TA will be different. Which is good.

I got a job with the computer department at the UA which is good. I think I will like it. Hopefully that job, coupled with MARPL and News 4 will allow me to get that Hannah Montana comforter I long to have.

The new film club is making progress. Although we have been discovered by the UFO, we continue to work on promos and other projects, which is more than what they are doing this summer. On Monday, we shot at my condo. After most everyone left, we decided to shoot an additional improvised scene in which Heather was tied up in the closet. Everything was going well, until one of the crew thought it was a good idea to cut the duct tape off with a knife. Needless to say there was blood and stitches. Just his, not Heather's. And for anyone who ever needs to get blood out of tile grout...Hydrogen Peroxide - worked like a charm. The next day we shot in Vail at my mom's place. We had fun and got some really great stuff all things considered. Looking forward to getting approved by ASUA.

And speaking of Heather...

She and another member of our new film club have become my best friends. We called upon a reference from "the girl next door" Were a Fucking Tripod. We sat and talked for a long time. Truth be told, I have never had that experience with friends like that before. It was amazing. I want to tell them about the real me but at the same time, I don't want to lose them. Something to talk about with my therapist tomorrow.

I have to get up a little early tomorrow. Gotta go to the condo and get my outfit for my meeting with my therapist. So I am gonna head to bed. Until Next Time...

-Hannah

A large update

So I will be returning to the U of A this fall. However, I will be living in the condo again this year which means the gas, the early wake-up, etc. But I did get a new job that will allow me to make the extra money that I need to keep myself afloat.

Mom is going to help me cover some of my costs due to that stupid iPad mistake which is good. The down side is that I have to pay extra rent on the condo to stay there.

Things have been going well with my therapist, she recommended a book for mom to read, so I went ahead and ordered it for her. I am also keeping a journal about how I feel.

I missed the dezert girls meeting on Monday, but only because I was hanging out with friends.

I was put on ADHD meds, but they don't seem to be having any effect on me. I wish they would.

I will try to be better at updating this thing, it just seems to be low on my priority list.

Until Next Time,

-Hannah