Hello All,
Coming out week is in less than 2 weeks. It starts on October 11th. I was planning on coming out to my closest friends this week, but there's a problem. Most of the people whom I am friends with that want to be there to support me will be too busy with other events. So here's the new plan. The week after coming out week is Allied Appreciation Week. A time for those in the LGBT... community to show appreciation for those who treat them with respect and fight for their rights. The plan is to come out to them during this week.
After I come out to them, comes the next step. I need to tell my mom what will be happening come January. This cannot be about her. It has to be about me. So the plan is to have her come into the meeting with my therapist with me. Not sure how she will take it, but it is something that has to be done. I just want to make sure that my friends know first. At least then, when she says, "What will your friends think?" I will be able to say, "Well mom, they already know."
Can't really think of anything else that relates to an update, so until next time...
-Hannah
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
Monday...Again
Hey there all,
Less than 2 weeks until my "financial" aid comes through. I should be able to make my first laser appointment which is awesome! Should be able to get my new iMac too. I am considering waiting on that though, just to make sure I have enough money for what is really important. I am not sure how much hair extensions are going to cost and I will need to develop a new wardrobe come January. Something I will look into for additional funds later is the money that I get for my birthday and Christmas. Oh, and speaking of birthdays...
My 25th is coming up soon. I can't say I am looking forward to being another year older again. Every year that I go without starting transition, the worse off I will be in the end. It's been stated that the older that a person goes through transition, the more difficult it is for them to pass, their looks are not as great, etc. I want to be able to pass well, and that means transition as soon as possible.
On the up side of things (or rather down) I finally put new batteries in my scale this morning. Remember for the record, I started the school year at 236. The scale this morning said...
217!
Seems I am making progress. I guess when you don't eat 4000 calories a day, you tend to lose weight faster. Not that it hasn't been a challenge. I still have an addiction to fast food. I wish it was easy to stop eating it, but its not. But I am doing better. Only time will tell.
I see Jan again tonight and I am looking forward to another great session. Until Next time...
-Hannah
Less than 2 weeks until my "financial" aid comes through. I should be able to make my first laser appointment which is awesome! Should be able to get my new iMac too. I am considering waiting on that though, just to make sure I have enough money for what is really important. I am not sure how much hair extensions are going to cost and I will need to develop a new wardrobe come January. Something I will look into for additional funds later is the money that I get for my birthday and Christmas. Oh, and speaking of birthdays...
My 25th is coming up soon. I can't say I am looking forward to being another year older again. Every year that I go without starting transition, the worse off I will be in the end. It's been stated that the older that a person goes through transition, the more difficult it is for them to pass, their looks are not as great, etc. I want to be able to pass well, and that means transition as soon as possible.
On the up side of things (or rather down) I finally put new batteries in my scale this morning. Remember for the record, I started the school year at 236. The scale this morning said...
217!
Seems I am making progress. I guess when you don't eat 4000 calories a day, you tend to lose weight faster. Not that it hasn't been a challenge. I still have an addiction to fast food. I wish it was easy to stop eating it, but its not. But I am doing better. Only time will tell.
I see Jan again tonight and I am looking forward to another great session. Until Next time...
-Hannah
Friday, September 24, 2010
Friday, Part 2
Wow, its amazing how things can change so quickly over the course of a day. I'll lay it all out...
Wells Fargo decided that they would not reverse the overdraft fees that they caused... It was actually their fault for once. So of the $240 paycheck that I got today, I ended up with $20 of it. Fucking bastards. I told them to go screw themselves and I closed my account. I decided, with the advice of my friends to go to Vantage West. So I am now a customer of theirs. But I still have bills to pay and no way to pay them. Lovely.
I received an email today that scheduled my interview time for the BFA. I was afraid that they might schedule me when I had class or work, but the time worked out. Maybe that's a good sign.
Then I went to have dinner/movie with the mom. That was somewhat fun. We saw "You Again." Excellent film. Very funny and highly recommended. But here was the problem...
My mom said that she couldn't handle me transitioning right now with rick and everything else that is going on in her life. I don't want to cause her any more pain or stress that she already has, but I don't want to live in this form anymore. I don't know what to do. HELP! (In other words, please post comments)
-Hannah
Wells Fargo decided that they would not reverse the overdraft fees that they caused... It was actually their fault for once. So of the $240 paycheck that I got today, I ended up with $20 of it. Fucking bastards. I told them to go screw themselves and I closed my account. I decided, with the advice of my friends to go to Vantage West. So I am now a customer of theirs. But I still have bills to pay and no way to pay them. Lovely.
I received an email today that scheduled my interview time for the BFA. I was afraid that they might schedule me when I had class or work, but the time worked out. Maybe that's a good sign.
Then I went to have dinner/movie with the mom. That was somewhat fun. We saw "You Again." Excellent film. Very funny and highly recommended. But here was the problem...
My mom said that she couldn't handle me transitioning right now with rick and everything else that is going on in her life. I don't want to cause her any more pain or stress that she already has, but I don't want to live in this form anymore. I don't know what to do. HELP! (In other words, please post comments)
-Hannah
Its been a few days
Hey all,
I haven't updated this thing in a few days, so I thought I would provide a few updates. The financial aid was approved! Yay! The financial aid is gonna be split into 2 dispursements. Sad :( The OSFA said that if they gave it all to me now, I would go over the assistance level. So they had to split it up. In what denomination is anyone's guess at this point. They said they would try and give me more sooner, but we'll see.
I have really been struggling with getting everything done that I need to. I believe that I have drastically overextended myself this year and I need to make some cutbacks. I already quit my job as the Director of Development with the CineCats. I don't have the energy to work 7 days a week anymore. For example, on Wednesday night, I got about 8 hours of sleep. By 11AM on thursday, I was already exhausted. So something has got to change.
Something else that's good is that I found someone who may be able to get me a job at the apple store in Tucson. This would be awesome because it is a job that I would enjoy. So we will see how that goes.
Also, I discovered that there are more ways than I thought that I can create my wardrobe at a smaller cost to me. For example, I thought that the best way was to shop at ROSS and also Goodwill/Buffalo/Savers. But one of my friends told me that she loves to do sewing and she will make me some clothes if I pay for the material. So that should save me money too.
Anyway, that's what's going on with me. Until Next Time
-Hannah
I haven't updated this thing in a few days, so I thought I would provide a few updates. The financial aid was approved! Yay! The financial aid is gonna be split into 2 dispursements. Sad :( The OSFA said that if they gave it all to me now, I would go over the assistance level. So they had to split it up. In what denomination is anyone's guess at this point. They said they would try and give me more sooner, but we'll see.
I have really been struggling with getting everything done that I need to. I believe that I have drastically overextended myself this year and I need to make some cutbacks. I already quit my job as the Director of Development with the CineCats. I don't have the energy to work 7 days a week anymore. For example, on Wednesday night, I got about 8 hours of sleep. By 11AM on thursday, I was already exhausted. So something has got to change.
Something else that's good is that I found someone who may be able to get me a job at the apple store in Tucson. This would be awesome because it is a job that I would enjoy. So we will see how that goes.
Also, I discovered that there are more ways than I thought that I can create my wardrobe at a smaller cost to me. For example, I thought that the best way was to shop at ROSS and also Goodwill/Buffalo/Savers. But one of my friends told me that she loves to do sewing and she will make me some clothes if I pay for the material. So that should save me money too.
Anyway, that's what's going on with me. Until Next Time
-Hannah
Monday, September 20, 2010
Real Web Address
I registered a .com for my blog and it is all set up. No more typing in that whole blogspot thing...
becominghannah.com
Enjoy!
becominghannah.com
Enjoy!
How did it go? It went like this...
Ok, now I am stealing quotes from "Cool Runnings" Sorry Senka.
The weekend was great, till the VERY end. I only had to go to work on Saturday so that was nice to have the day off. The football game was great. Never seen a QB get sacked 4 times in a row. Kinda sad.
Sunday was great, we went up to a trans clothing exchange. I didn't find very much there that I liked. After all, it was a free exchange. Cant expect much. Plus, most of the women there were much older than me, so not exactly what I wanted to wear. But I got some shirts that were pretty cute and I found a black leather skirt that almost fit me. It will be hanging in my living room kinda like that bikini commercial giving me the incentive to lose the weight that I need to.
After we finished with the exchange, my friend wanted to go to an adult store. So we found one that was really close to the exchange. And that's when things got really fun. Me and my friends tried on tons of slutty outfits that, if I was in HS I might be able to get away with in the goth community. Unfortunately, I am not in HS anymore. Sad. But I found an outfit that I absolutely fell in love with. I didn't get it though. I wanted to make sure that I didn't get anything that would eventually be too big and unwearable. So I don't have it hanging up in my living room, but it will only give me more reason to continue to lose weight. Looking forward to going clubbing out in it. Pictures to come in December when I get it :)
Then when I went to do homework, I totally spilled water all over my laptop. A lot of water. I think it will be ok because I managed to get it turned off and the battery removed pretty fast, but time will tell. Couldn't get the case open to dry last night as I didn't have some really small screwdrivers.
Oh well. Over all it was one of the most fun weekends that I have had.
I am going for a consultation tomorrow with a lady from affordable laser. Should be cool.
The weekend was great, till the VERY end. I only had to go to work on Saturday so that was nice to have the day off. The football game was great. Never seen a QB get sacked 4 times in a row. Kinda sad.
Sunday was great, we went up to a trans clothing exchange. I didn't find very much there that I liked. After all, it was a free exchange. Cant expect much. Plus, most of the women there were much older than me, so not exactly what I wanted to wear. But I got some shirts that were pretty cute and I found a black leather skirt that almost fit me. It will be hanging in my living room kinda like that bikini commercial giving me the incentive to lose the weight that I need to.
After we finished with the exchange, my friend wanted to go to an adult store. So we found one that was really close to the exchange. And that's when things got really fun. Me and my friends tried on tons of slutty outfits that, if I was in HS I might be able to get away with in the goth community. Unfortunately, I am not in HS anymore. Sad. But I found an outfit that I absolutely fell in love with. I didn't get it though. I wanted to make sure that I didn't get anything that would eventually be too big and unwearable. So I don't have it hanging up in my living room, but it will only give me more reason to continue to lose weight. Looking forward to going clubbing out in it. Pictures to come in December when I get it :)
Then when I went to do homework, I totally spilled water all over my laptop. A lot of water. I think it will be ok because I managed to get it turned off and the battery removed pretty fast, but time will tell. Couldn't get the case open to dry last night as I didn't have some really small screwdrivers.
Oh well. Over all it was one of the most fun weekends that I have had.
I am going for a consultation tomorrow with a lady from affordable laser. Should be cool.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
So, this weekend
Ok, heres an update...
I finally finished my application for entrance into the BFA program at school. Its good, certainly a lifted weight.
One of my friends got sick this weekend, so they needed to push back our skating adventure. But that's OK, whats the most important is that everyone gets well. I am still planning to go up to Phoenix with a couple of other people to the Trans Clothing event and get some free stuff. No reason not to.
Last night I went to see a movie with mom. I wanted to see "Easy A." She wanted to see "The American." So we went to see The American. We walked out of the movie and she said, "we should have gone to see the other movie." I said, "I tried to tell you..."
Anyway, next week we will likely go see the movie about the adultress.
Sent off the proof of income much sooner than expected. Hopefully I will have everything I need for the financial aid in 2 weeks, but that is up to the bank and the OSFA at the U of A.
Looking forward to getting a new purse and lasering off this hideous hair. Should be fun. Anyway, time to finish getting ready for work.
-Hannah
I finally finished my application for entrance into the BFA program at school. Its good, certainly a lifted weight.
One of my friends got sick this weekend, so they needed to push back our skating adventure. But that's OK, whats the most important is that everyone gets well. I am still planning to go up to Phoenix with a couple of other people to the Trans Clothing event and get some free stuff. No reason not to.
Last night I went to see a movie with mom. I wanted to see "Easy A." She wanted to see "The American." So we went to see The American. We walked out of the movie and she said, "we should have gone to see the other movie." I said, "I tried to tell you..."
Anyway, next week we will likely go see the movie about the adultress.
Sent off the proof of income much sooner than expected. Hopefully I will have everything I need for the financial aid in 2 weeks, but that is up to the bank and the OSFA at the U of A.
Looking forward to getting a new purse and lasering off this hideous hair. Should be fun. Anyway, time to finish getting ready for work.
-Hannah
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
A quick update...
Just a small note...
Spoke with a person from Affordable Laser Today. Scheduled a consultation. She said I should probably wait about 4 weeks from yesterday because of the electrolysis, which will likely work out since US Bank makes a career out of making people wait for loans.
-Hannah
Spoke with a person from Affordable Laser Today. Scheduled a consultation. She said I should probably wait about 4 weeks from yesterday because of the electrolysis, which will likely work out since US Bank makes a career out of making people wait for loans.
-Hannah
O M G!
Typically I don't really like to use said phrases that relate to texting, but this has been that kind of 3 days. Where to begin...
On Monday night I found a cosigner! Yay! Thanks to that special person who did it. For her privacy I won't display her name.
On Tuesday, I went for electrolysis. HURT LIKE A BITCH! I talked to cheryl, and she said that it will cost upwards of $3000 in the end to finish everything, and between now and January, I just don't have that kind of money. But don't worry, I am not going to back out of my plan. I will get laser treatment for my face and make everything pretty much go away. Hopefully start within the month.
I did find out about a pretty cool thing going on in Phoenix this weekend. A trans clothing exchange! Gonna go get some new things to wear!
Couldn't go biking with Ellen last night cause of the electro. Sorry Ellen, I will try my hardest to make it next week.
...And then there was Wednesday Morning...
So I am driving along speedway, almost to my parking garage when some stupid ***** decides to go all the way from the right lane to the left lane without stopping. Don't worry, no accident, but when my car stalled, it was the last of my battery that had needed replacing for a long time. So late for work, I had the cops push my car to the side of the road and then waited for AAA to come, and they did.
Hopefully there won't be anymore near accidents for a while.
Oh, and I chose a last name...
What does everyone think of this.
-Hannah Serafino-
Good Strong Italian name.
Feedback? Comments? You know I like em!
-Hannah
On Monday night I found a cosigner! Yay! Thanks to that special person who did it. For her privacy I won't display her name.
On Tuesday, I went for electrolysis. HURT LIKE A BITCH! I talked to cheryl, and she said that it will cost upwards of $3000 in the end to finish everything, and between now and January, I just don't have that kind of money. But don't worry, I am not going to back out of my plan. I will get laser treatment for my face and make everything pretty much go away. Hopefully start within the month.
I did find out about a pretty cool thing going on in Phoenix this weekend. A trans clothing exchange! Gonna go get some new things to wear!
Couldn't go biking with Ellen last night cause of the electro. Sorry Ellen, I will try my hardest to make it next week.
...And then there was Wednesday Morning...
So I am driving along speedway, almost to my parking garage when some stupid ***** decides to go all the way from the right lane to the left lane without stopping. Don't worry, no accident, but when my car stalled, it was the last of my battery that had needed replacing for a long time. So late for work, I had the cops push my car to the side of the road and then waited for AAA to come, and they did.
Hopefully there won't be anymore near accidents for a while.
Oh, and I chose a last name...
What does everyone think of this.
-Hannah Serafino-
Good Strong Italian name.
Feedback? Comments? You know I like em!
-Hannah
Monday, September 13, 2010
Monday
Hey all,
Another title from Sorkin's Studio 60. Well, that's what day it is and I am too tired to come up with a better title.
Today should be fun. I have my bi-weekly meeting with my therapist at 5 tonight, which is always good, and then I have Dezert Girlz at 7. Double support tonight! Yay! Tomorrow begins my electro. We'll see how that goes. Hopefully not too painful
Bumped my head yesterday on a glass cabinet at mom's house. There was blood. Everything is OK though. So continues my streak of nearly 25 years and still no injuries, i.e. broken arms, etc.
Not feeling too well this morning. Nothing to do with my head, but I am gonna go home and get a nap.
-Hannah
Another title from Sorkin's Studio 60. Well, that's what day it is and I am too tired to come up with a better title.
Today should be fun. I have my bi-weekly meeting with my therapist at 5 tonight, which is always good, and then I have Dezert Girlz at 7. Double support tonight! Yay! Tomorrow begins my electro. We'll see how that goes. Hopefully not too painful
Bumped my head yesterday on a glass cabinet at mom's house. There was blood. Everything is OK though. So continues my streak of nearly 25 years and still no injuries, i.e. broken arms, etc.
Not feeling too well this morning. Nothing to do with my head, but I am gonna go home and get a nap.
-Hannah
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Electrolysis and a Cosigner
Hey everyone,
I know, I know, I should only post once a day, but I thought this was mildly urgent. Obviously, as you all know, I will finally be living as Hannah Susan (insert chosen last name here) as of January. You also know that I am starting electrolysis next week. I have the money to cover 1-2 treatments per week, but from what I have been told, that will very unlikely cover what I will actually need in order for my face to look mildly clear. As a result, I need to seek some financial aid. I applied for several private loans (for the residence halls this past year) with no success. As a result, I need to find a creditworthy cosigner. I was wondering if anyone had any ideas for me. Before you suggest the parents, already tried that. Dad is a cheapskate and mom is, well, mom. Some of the things I will lay out are as follows for the person who decides to help me...
1. Every dime of this financial aid that is spent can be monitored by the cosigner through a new checking acct that i will open for the purpose of this loan.
2. I will sign a separate contract with the cosigner that relieves them of all burdens (which should not be a problem, but just in case)
3. Any other conditions that the cosigner will set forth to me.
If anyone has any ideas/options they would like to present to me, it would be much appreciated. Thanks a lot for all your continued support.
And remember, Hannah loves comments on her posts!
-Hannah
I know, I know, I should only post once a day, but I thought this was mildly urgent. Obviously, as you all know, I will finally be living as Hannah Susan (insert chosen last name here) as of January. You also know that I am starting electrolysis next week. I have the money to cover 1-2 treatments per week, but from what I have been told, that will very unlikely cover what I will actually need in order for my face to look mildly clear. As a result, I need to seek some financial aid. I applied for several private loans (for the residence halls this past year) with no success. As a result, I need to find a creditworthy cosigner. I was wondering if anyone had any ideas for me. Before you suggest the parents, already tried that. Dad is a cheapskate and mom is, well, mom. Some of the things I will lay out are as follows for the person who decides to help me...
1. Every dime of this financial aid that is spent can be monitored by the cosigner through a new checking acct that i will open for the purpose of this loan.
2. I will sign a separate contract with the cosigner that relieves them of all burdens (which should not be a problem, but just in case)
3. Any other conditions that the cosigner will set forth to me.
If anyone has any ideas/options they would like to present to me, it would be much appreciated. Thanks a lot for all your continued support.
And remember, Hannah loves comments on her posts!
-Hannah
The week at hand
Greetings all,
So I have been doing a little better lately. I dropped a class in order to be able to pass and pass well my other classes. It also has to do with the fact that I need the extra time to finish (start) my BFA portfolio, and let's face it, there's a lot of homework associated with a foreign language.
My plan is to do a really kick-ass portfolio and then after I get accepted to the BFA, place out of 1st year Italian. (In the BFA, you only need to do one year of a foreign language)
Something that has been bothering me is the fact that my ADHD meds are not working. The doctors said this med might not work for me and I guess they were right. I called my caseworker to get a meeting with a doctor early, but no response yet.
Didn't get to go skating yet, but the best things in life are worth waiting for, like my first electro treatment next week! Until next time...
-Hannah
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So I have been doing a little better lately. I dropped a class in order to be able to pass and pass well my other classes. It also has to do with the fact that I need the extra time to finish (start) my BFA portfolio, and let's face it, there's a lot of homework associated with a foreign language.
My plan is to do a really kick-ass portfolio and then after I get accepted to the BFA, place out of 1st year Italian. (In the BFA, you only need to do one year of a foreign language)
Something that has been bothering me is the fact that my ADHD meds are not working. The doctors said this med might not work for me and I guess they were right. I called my caseworker to get a meeting with a doctor early, but no response yet.
Didn't get to go skating yet, but the best things in life are worth waiting for, like my first electro treatment next week! Until next time...
-Hannah
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Thursday, September 2, 2010
Roller Skates
Hey everyone,
On tuesday after I posted, I went to the year's first Pride Alliance LGBT support group. It was awesome! We had a huge group! I got some really good support and help, especially with the coming out to my friends. Many of my new friends offered to be there with me when I come out to my friends, and that was a huge relief. I love all of my new friends!
Me and a couple of them are going to shop for roller skates on Monday because we have the day off. That's going to be fun. Then we will start training for the AIDS walk (skate) probably on the mall at the U of A. I'm really excited considering that my skates have been collecting dust for a very long time.
After that, I have the SAGA General Meeting, so it is going to be a good Monday off! I'll let yall know how it goes!
-Hannah
On tuesday after I posted, I went to the year's first Pride Alliance LGBT support group. It was awesome! We had a huge group! I got some really good support and help, especially with the coming out to my friends. Many of my new friends offered to be there with me when I come out to my friends, and that was a huge relief. I love all of my new friends!
Me and a couple of them are going to shop for roller skates on Monday because we have the day off. That's going to be fun. Then we will start training for the AIDS walk (skate) probably on the mall at the U of A. I'm really excited considering that my skates have been collecting dust for a very long time.
After that, I have the SAGA General Meeting, so it is going to be a good Monday off! I'll let yall know how it goes!
-Hannah
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